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My legs and hands were literarily shaking as the doctor informed me further that Toluwalase’s brain was partially damaged and his physical growth might be inhibited. I began to ask God questions . I was running crazy and kept soliloquizing back and forth asking and shouting “Why me”??? -Fadugba Folashade

Yeeeeeee…I shouted! Let me use the toilet. Rub my back. Nooo the main back. Sorry the middle. It is not easy!!! I screamed and almost losing my breath.

My legs and hands were literarily shaking as the doctor informed me further that Toluwalase’s brain was partially damaged and his physical growth might be inhibited. I began to ask God questions . I was running crazy and kept soliloquizing back and forth asking and shouting “Why me”??? -Fadugba Folashade

 

TOLUWALASE: MY STORY, THE JOURNEY.

Yeeeeeee…I shouted! Let me use the toilet. Rub my back. Nooo the main back. Sorry the middle. It is not easy!!! I screamed and almost losing my breath.

Aunty you will take it easy even though it is not easy ni ooo. One of the nurses responded to my worded tears. Then the brave journey began. The girly power in me took front as I launched forcefully into motherhood. My story is about to be changed…

My thirty six weeks journey of excitement, intermittent blushes here and there, mirror baby bump rehearsals stress, nausea ,uncontrolled vomits, ante-natal checkups, baby and mother talks and many more engrossing and unbelievable moments were about to come to an end but of course through a painful Joy…

 

I had to be induced but yet, my strong willed Baby would not come out so cheaply. Hmm, I expected my beautiful Darling with Joy in my heart but tears running freely out of my eyes. I labored, yes I laboured for 12 full hours. It took that long but my Baby toughened me or perhaps God was testing my patience and training me…

Eventually, the doctor called Baby’s father and said an operation had to be carried out immediately. I wasn’t scared of the Caesarian section. All I wanted was for my Baby to be fine. The pain became painless probably because of the giant entry of 36 weeks friend coming to smile at me for bringing a life forth.

 

Silence everywhere. Dead silence maybe apart from the needle’s and designed metal scissors. My mind was awake. I expected cries but didn’t
hear any. What is wrong??? Folashade talk to me. My spirit engaged my mind in a conversation then it occurred clearly to me that me Baby has refused to cry and blue…

The doctors did all they could to bring my Baby back to life and their efforts and expertise scored a goal.

My Baby spent six full days fully exposed to life. Hence beyond the mechanized oxygen, I strongly sense God saying “I have given you a child and my plans for you and him are solely good and not evil”. I took a deep breath and played my journey. I named him that very moment” TOLUWALASE’ that is ,God’s decree is the final “.

I carried my Baby boy in my hands and was so full of Joy. I dared anyone to ride a bicycle in me that day…lol! No tripping cause the joy and peace in my hearts were indeed like calm waters but then something unusual erupted my joy and peace…

Toluwalase who weighed 5.5kg at the hospital had shrinked within a week to 2.2kg. Something was definitely wrong not even after the continuous sucking of my sore breasts…

At 2months I became so worried as Toluwalase wasn’t obviously growing like every other child. Referred to a consultant and heard the shock of my life. He has cerebral palsy. The doctor said it calmly and obviously ready to counsel me. I have never heard such before until he explained further and asked me to check up for more information via the internet. My legs and hands were literarily shaking as the doctor informed me further that Toluwalase’s brain was partially
damaged and his physical growth might be inhibited. I began to ask God questions . I was running crazy and kept soliloquizing back and forth asking and shouting “Why me”???

It took a lot of time to adjust to my reality as I sort help from both friends and enemies. I wanted my reality changed but then it was late and Toluwalase waited patiently for my love…

 

Was it easy? No! But was every pain worth it? Yes! I embraced my journey while mother’s genuine love encapsulated my mind. God has shown me enough love. Kept His part of the deal and brought Toluwalase back to life. His promises didn’t leave my thought even though I was faithless.

The stigmatization,my Baby’s cry for some freedom and more love ,money squandered but then God opened a mighty way and I found myself relocating out of this country just to find more medical services for my handsome Baby…

We landed in France and yes God poured out love. The environment showed us love and I showed my Baby love. Fed him, bathed him, carried him, cleaned him and did and still do most if not all,every child of his age does for themselves but then I have chosen only positive envy and never to envy any parent or child negatively . I am done with comparing flaws and perfection but to love mine perfectly and let others in my shoes find encouragement and perhaps envy me positively.

 

I am done with hate as I see every child as unique. I am done with worries as my inner strength and love supersedes stress and disturbances.
I am so done with bitterness ,all that spring out is Joy and empathy. I am so done with regrets ,all left is an intentional life while purpose bubbles in my spirit and radiates in my energy. Toluwalase has so inspired me to love and to see the pain and joy in every special child out there.

Toluwalase my child is not a stigma but my strength.
Toluwalase might be physically challenged but his mind sees a bright future. If the mind is sick the whole body is useless…
Toluwalase is Strong and has showed courage even in the midst of uncertainties.

My child, your child are God’s blessing in disguise or how else will a child make us not just to love him but every child in the world?

Our heart is large and we want to see them BEYOND THE LABEL and harness their gifts and showcase these beautiful ones to the world.

Are you ready to hug the pain, shame, fear, stigmatization, hate, complex away and spread love?

Join me as we celebrate other beautiful children and show them the ultimate love of God.

Toluwalase is 8years old and yes he has grown more handsomely and determined BEYOND THE LABEL…

If only you will show love to that child and thereby impact lives.

Thank you for the companionship so far and thank you for changing my life. Kisses!

Thank you Jesus, the very reason I love Right and have strength. Conception, thirty six weeks journey, labour and now has proved to me that “you rule truly in the affairs of men”…

 

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